So there I was organizing the basement and I came across a box of cd's from when I was in my late teens.  I put on a few of the cd's and came across one and as I listened to it I found cimfort in this one song because it is similar to how I feel.  Here are the lyrics..

Youll never see the courage I know
Its colors richness wont appear within your view
Ill never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you

Youll say you understand, but you dont understand
Youll say youd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you cant afford to lie

Youll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
Youll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than Ive ever shown - to you

Youll say, dont fear your dreams, its easier than it seems
Youll say youd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you cant afford to lie

Youll never live the life that I live
Ill never live the life that wakes me in the night
Youll never hear the message I give
Youll say it looks as though I might give up this fight

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you

Youll say you understand, youll never understand
Ill say Ill never wake up knowing how or why
I dont know what to believe in, you dont know who I am
Youll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and Ill never need a lie

THanks Ablely, It actually only about 14 years old.  This artist has made quite the name for herself so you probably have heard of her,  Her name is Fionna Apple.  I hadcompltely forgotten how much I loved that cd in the 1990's.  Now, I get to re3-experience it today.  Love it just as much as I did then which is odd as you usually pull out music from your teens and think...what was I thinking.  :)  Not the case this time....