Love.

The one thing I would do if I was guaranteed not to fail is to show love to more people.

Again I am struck by how similar we seem to be, UM. Like you I have thought about it, and cannot settle on any one and only thing I would most like to achieve, (all by myself - I'm not sure about that part of the question either), without fail and indeed without delay - if I also knew I would maintain an unwavering commitmetn to it. Is it planting a little localised seed? Or something really big, encompassing the world in one hit, if you will? Or do I be really selfish with my choice of personal wishes, like being a musician/composer, or a seriously thought-provoking fiction writer, or get my voice back and not fail to sing any damn thing I want, or simply not fail to like living - no matter what it throws at me. Or would I opt to have the basic confidence just to get out and have a go at almost everything (some things cannot be on that list - no violence for one. I don't think it would be a good idea to go there). Or on a larger scale, do I go for world peace, enough food available to all, quality health care for all, useful education for all? What would be the miracle answer there - without imposing immortality on myself?

I read a book where people got their wishes, and one woman wanted to feed the world. She got a mall box with seeds. The seeds grew itno food-bearing trees, which grew fast and frolific, spread like weeds, choking out all other plants .... ooops! People also got sick of the food when it became ubiquidous in their lives. Economies were effected too. This book really was a bunch of lessons in being careful what you wish for and what to do when it has unintended consequences.

It is a wonderful thought experiment though.

-Mebenji

Re-train as a marine biologist and let someone else worry about why their bloody computer isn't working.

I've heard that "quote-question" several times. I actually tell it to my friends a lot, to get them to think ... But I'm not quite sure myself ... I believe at this moment that if I weren't afraid to fail at something ... I would pick up my life and move it somewhere else, across the state, the country, the world ... Wherever life would take me, I'd go. I would re-start my life ... live in a place that no one would know me, regroup and become the person I know that lies inside me ... If only I weren't afraid ... :0)

bringing up my children (when i have children that is).

if i could not fail on something it would be that because i would like them to understand the world, be able to have good stable jobs, find love and life without hurt, hate, regret or fear. make sure they have respect and have understanding of responsibilities and help their generation and for the generation of their children. when it comes their turn for parenting show and share their wisdom of the world to them.

x  

No Zorro because it is about not being able to fail so I don't think you can cheat.  Yes life would be good thing to succeed in - hope you are full of good dreams - how many sleeps???

Hi again UM, hope your having a nice day.

I think mine would be to be happy with the person I am, to be able to look in the mirror and be proud. Mentally im at so much of a better place than I was in November last year when I first met all of you guys on here. One day I would be ok the next secretly suicidal and I never had a night where I didn't hop into my bed thinking about jumping in front of a train.

I had all these ups, these positives, like seeing part of the world, going on my own pilgrimage so to speak but I hated myself. I had all of these wise words for others but couldn't implement those practices in my own life.

I lost the girl I thought I would spend the rest of my life with, I was overweight, drinking heavily, lethargic when it came to my occupation and I had put a shell around my self when it came to friends and family.

I did risky things, like getting drunk and riding on the back of trams only to jump off when it got to a speed I knew I could injure myself, I started doing drugs again, sleeping with random people and I became the type of person I could only describe as being lost.

I went to a Psychologist, and didn't like him, tried another thought of him just as a rich kid with a private school upbringing whose family had enough money to send him to uni and thought to myself, what on earth can this chump tell me about my life.

I've been on drugs, hung around crims, lost everything from my car to my pops world war 2 medals, almost lost my family, ive seen a best mate die and held him in my arms, lost several other friends, seen my father flat line and my cousin get cancer only to get well again then get it back. So I think I was a 32 year old who was angry at the world and didn't really want someone who I saw as having not real life experience try to tell me what im doing wrong.

The road I have travelled from then to now has had heaps of ups heaps of downs but it gets better every day. I write a lot, I do a lot of exercise and im back to a size 30 in jeans, i haven't worn that size since I was 21 and playing state league hockey. I do feel better about myself, am not lonely anymore, have opened back up to my friends and family, don't drink to excess any more, don't touch any drugs, prescription or illegal, im back in sync with my work, and life's great and I think I realised that by trying to find a replacement for Katherine, all I was doing was not allowing myself to grieve and get over her properly.

I got offered a new job last week, a massive pay rise and it includes travel all over Australia and New Zealand. I'm not sure if I am going to take it but what I do know is that I haven't had that dream about fighting off the attacker with the knife for weeks now, have not had a suicidal thought in over 2 months, haven't been sad for about a month, got closure on the Katherine saga we had a long chat. and im busier than ive ever been. Still, my only hurdle now is I want to be able to look in the mirror and like what Is see. I still don't but at least I know im happier and motivated again.

My husband but I have made a mess of that already. I hope never to fail hiim again.