Hello Mae,

I have an idea I would like to do if I had enough money - but first I need a house and land, with trees, bushes and such, all very natural looking - then I would paint the house to absolutely, completetly camouflauge it from view. Fence too. My mail would go to a P O Box. No Junk Mail - well, with no mail box to stuff it into...and no house in view? I might do the roof to resemble a UFO - just hovering, forever hovering. I'd have to put lights in it so it would look 'alive'.

I am not sure what to do with the inside, yet.

-Mebenji

My AC went out (again) and I was angry, stomping around outside, talking on the phone to the AC repairman who has been out TWICE in the past 5 days to fix my air conditioner. After I locked him down on an appointment I collapsed on the stairs and closed my eyes.

I don't know what caused me to open my eyes, but when I did the sky was the most beautiful pink color and it was reflected all around me. My house was pink, my neighbor's house was pink, it was as if the very air had turned pink and calming just for me.

I sat there and watched the sunrise and it was wonderful.

I was reminded of nights on the rez watching the northern lights, only then it was greens and yellows and only occassionally a very deep ruby red.  When there was snow on the ground the auroras made the whole world into a wonderful kalidaescope (sp?) of color and I would often lay in the snow and just watch and be amazed at the wonder of nature.

I wish I could capture (or have captured) that sense of color and wonderment in a painting. Both todays pink air and my childhood memories of colors reflected in the snow.

Yeah, I think of SO Much money being exchanged for works of art - & how little the still living artists receive, not to mention people profiting from art while their long gone artists very often lived in poverty and how insecure is the life of an artist producing work now? Circumstances may not actually prevent an artist producing work - it is something which must be done - but, for finances one can only wonder at what might be created. Being able to have a suitable workspace, materials, and time; all of which costs money and a society which values what your artistic output produces just as much as it values the farmer, the carpenter, the women who bear and raise children. If art is not seen as fundamentally necessary to the survival and wellbeing of the society as that, how does one live to create?

So, I want to create my own, my own clothes, house, paintings, music, pottery, furniture, & once I did all that - who knows? So much limits my ability to achieve much of this at all - money looms very large indeed.

-Mebenji