I will hurt whichever decision I make. At least I know I did everything I could by giving this a fair chance. To allow him to learn. I feel like I can't talk to people about my problems because they're so bad and I already know what they'll say and I just want someone to listen and care. I don't want to be judged. I want someone to support this relationship because it doesn't have to be this way. I have no one and the people I do care about, I know won't tell me what I hope to hear. No one can see it from my point of view. No one can reassure me it will be okay.

I'd rather keep to myself.