lonely

JayT

Brick created on 09/03/2008 @ 21:22

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Surrounded by people, friends and alike,
I doesn't seem enough, it doesn't seem real.
I am in the middle of the crowd, but companied I do not feel.
I sit back and listen, the weeks events surround.
Yet I feel completely unable, to utter a single sound.
Do they know I exist? Do they wonder what happens with me?
Do they ask me any questions or do they just simply ley me be?
I just want to know they love me, I need to know they care.
But by the end of the day, was I ever really there?

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10/03/2008 @ 16:09 JayT said

thanks roze... i know you are right, yet it is so difficult to feel that sometimes...I guess it's a way of protecting myself from my perception of a rejection.
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10/03/2008 @ 16:09 JayT said

ooops, seems i have deleted your comment, sorry, pressed the wrong button!
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26/03/2008 @ 13:29 Mebenji said

Hi JayT. You've done it again - your words mirror feelings I have, and you mention protecting yourself against rejection? I know that well too. Sometimes I feel I am in an inpenetrable bubble, drifting among the crowd. They don't know me and don't see me and of-course don't hear me. Even if I could scream, I could not screm loud enough, I have thought because they don't want to acknowledge my existance, nor what I experience. Or, sometimes I think, they are all in their own bubbles too. Am I not seeing them? (like you've just erased roze) I think my stubborn denial that there really might be genuine caring people out there might be MY problem.
I don't know how you come across your images and put them together so sucessfully. You've amazed me again.
Thank you with more ((hugs)) coming your way.
01/04/2008 @ 22:40 JayT said

Hi Mebenji
Thank you for your comments... i find rejecting others is my way of staying safe...avoiding the pain of feeling that rejection...silly really, but a hard habit to break. If you ever need a scream.... my ears are hear for you.
Take care
((hugs)) to you too