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• 03/08/2008 @ 21:51 UMxx said

  

  Oh I could have written this!

  I am Now, a very happy writer and can talk about things to do with work - had to learn - but goodness the fears of talking about how I feel are beyond me. I just see it as something I have to learn. I used to really beat up myself and now I realise I am not the only one and I can learn how to do this - but it takes so much emotional energy.

  UM

• 22/08/2008 @ 23:01 lucypete said

  

  i dont know how this is supposed to work, i dont feel like im working out solutions but im relieved im not the only one. im rude, i ignore probavly the best friend that i will ever have, even typing these words in tears i know that i should call her or send a message but i know that i wont, i think i like having more to hate about myself, i dont know what else to say but i know its not about me! you just caught my eye.

  
  

• 22/08/2008 @ 23:58 UMxx said

  

  No inspite of the fact that we each feel all alone - what I have learnt on the wall is that there are many of us who have the same feelings and still feel alone.

  Hey Anon - you know you can add a comment and remain anon? just checking you are okay.

  lucypete - this just works - you are judging your own behaviour - forget the judging - just try to write about your feelings. And you know that word "should" I think that was invented so we could beat ourselves up - a dangerous word it is .

  What is it that really gets in the way of contacting your friend - what is the feeling? Umxx

• 23/08/2008 @ 00:15 lucypete said

  

  i feel a lousy friend, i feel like i dissapoint and have nothing to offer her, she sends me messages weekly which i ignore, i think i feel resentment and almost that i want to punish her for her poor taste. that sounds so lame i know. she made me godmother to her first child and i cant even bring myself to visit her, i think its best left now.

• 23/08/2008 @ 04:33 UMxx said

  

  Hey again, So your friend loves you so much that she made you a godmother to her first child - parents don't do that unless they really think you are a special person. It isn't lame that you feel like punishing her for liking you - it just means that she sees good and wonderful things in you that you can't see in yourself.

  Are you depressed? or is there something else that you feel that is making you feel down on yourself? UM xx

• 24/08/2008 @ 17:07 silentwarrior said

  

  hey Lucypete, you must be special to be a godmother.
  friendships are dificult and take a lot of work, i can empathise with what you say totaly. i have a frien dwho i feel im no good for, but we are so close and she understands that i am ill and thats what makes me dificult to know.

  you are not alone but im pritty sure there are some wonderful qualitys about you that this friend saw to initiate the friendship.

• 25/08/2008 @ 21:56 UMxx said

  

  Hey Anon, How are you feeling now? UM xxx

• 27/08/2008 @ 11:13 silentwarrior said

  

  you know i hadent even realised this brick was annon!
  im in alot of pain right now but am coping

• 27/08/2008 @ 13:08 UMxx said

  

  Hey silent warrior - good for you knowing that you are coping - but don't tough it out unless you really to - we can all be listeners xx UM

• 27/08/2008 @ 17:04 silentwarrior said

  

  thanks
  its mostly pysical pain right now, and worry that im starting new meds this week. not sure about it all tho

• 30/08/2008 @ 11:06 UMxx said

  

  Hey warrior,
  take it easy and ask the questions about the med - especially about the side effects and read all of the information. Do you think the physical pain comes from your emotions? I have awful pains in my arms and palms that I agree are psychic pains. It explains why pain killers never worked - but my head meds keep it in better check. And there are people on the Wall who might be able to direct you to information on the Web if you need it UMx