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• 24/09/2008 @ 23:02 Anonymous said

  

  Well I am now feeling-overwhelmed, stunned and a bit giggly if I'm honest. I didn't expect to get comments about my brick. Basically I'm having difficulty knowing what is 'wrong' with me/my life. Well how to deal with stuff-I'm caring for my disabled son, on anti-depressants(on and off for years now) and kind of not doing anything much. No hobbies, loosing friends(they are getting on my nerves!!) and can't be bothered going out etc. Flippin heck I am a bundle of fun!! I hate being this way when there are so many other people in this world that really have to struggle to survive-I annoy myself that I can't count my blessings and be grateful for the life I have. Thank you all for your comments-it's quite surreal on here x

• 25/09/2008 @ 05:33 roze said

  

  Caring is very demanding. My nephew is autistic and i know that my brother and his wife have worked so hard for him to have every possible opportunity in life whilst needing to be constantly attentive. Friends who are carers have talked about how they can begin to feel very cut off from the world and rather isolated. Are you feeling like this at all? Rx

• 25/09/2008 @ 08:31 Anonymous said

  

  Hello roze and Wolfie-you are very thoughtful to respond to me and ask me questions on how I'm feeling. I do find it very difficult to talk about how I feel-well I get confused about it!!Plus I don't like anybody to know I'm not doing so well and also because I'm aware that I'm a different me.
  I am doing this for me Wolfie!!I could do lots of things but can't muster the effort or conviction. I do visit 1 friend regularly but that usually ends up with me doing something for them or staying longer than I should-so it ends up a negative experience for me.Then I don't want to visit s much-plus they never come to me(I have a car they have bus passes!!!) I do feel isolated-my 2 other friends work so can only visit in evenings which is difficult with my son as he hates doing things that aren't for him. I also have difficulty telling people if they have upset me so harbour grudges and distance myself.I have nothing to talk about anymore so conversation doesn't flow!!I know the issues I have but can't seem to get off my bum and get on with life!!This is sooo difficult talking about how I really feel.

• 25/09/2008 @ 16:17 Anonymous said

  

  This is hard going-already posted and then deleted a lengthy essay of my woes-I think I don't like to talk about what is bothering me because I think it shouldn't bother me and if I don't say it out loud then it will all go away and not be real in my head-even now writing that it makes me think I'm not thinking right-I don't like being like this and am supposed to go for an assessment with the psychiatric nurses to see the best way to help me, if any counselling is needed-although from past experience they are very busy and I seem to be forgotten or not understood and feel belittled-probably cos I have difficulty saying everything-it's in a few weeks and I don't know if I should bare my soul here-I don't like putting on people-friends and family do listen to what I say but they got their own s4!t too which is greater than mine.
  I don't have a partner-I realise I have more issues than I thought coming on here and I get foggy when I try to write it all down-like it's not me I'm talking about-I don't want it to be me-the one with trivial issues when I see what some people are having to deal with.Sorry if I'm sounding ungrateful-I think I might need to read some topics and comments first before I can say stuff-thank you all for your encouraging words and hopefully chat soon xxx

• 25/09/2008 @ 20:15 roze said

  

  Yes. Everyone has issues - none more important than the other. Somehow we may be censored enough in life - for fear of putting on others - but not here. It is sometimes very hard to find words for what we are feeling - and it can take some time for them to arrive - as we may not even know what they are. Please do not delete what is important to you. Love roze xx

• 25/09/2008 @ 20:25 freckles said

  

  Thank you roze-that makes sense-I guess I'm scared of realizing that alot of things have bothered me. I shall get it out.xx

• 25/09/2008 @ 22:08 freckles said

  

  Thank you as well blueangel-it's hard to understand that people are here for me-well and everyone else but you all giving me your time and energy and thoughts-thank you xx