This is how it started (it starts with her talking and hemlock is a poisonous plant) :

"where does one get some hemlock?"

"FORGET IT. im not telling you. and if you keep asking, im going to stop talking to you...its not funny..."

"well, then i'd really have to kill myself...even my mom said so."

"i highly doubt your mom would tell you to kill yourself..."

"you doubt a lot of things. doesnt mean your right."

"fine, whatever, go ahead. i cant stop you. just know your reasons for killing yourself are really weak. so many people have gone through so much more than you and they're still around. just because you dont know what youre going to do with your life, youre going to give up? fine, i dont know a lot about you, hell, i might not know anything about you, but if youre saying this cause you want attention, you wont get it from me. ive been here for you, always. you know that. ive dropped everything i could when you needed me. what else can i do? dont talk to me unless you have something real or true to say to me."

that was the mini fight we had and i havent talked to her since i said that. all the stuff thats in the postcard is what the text messaged me on my phone.

My point is: how can i be friends with someone who thinks that i dont care? i have honestly given everything i could to help her because its just who i am. im not trying to make myself sound like an amazing person because im not, im just me. i've given everything i could, dropped everything i could, just to help her. if she thinks that i "truthfully wouldnt care," why would i have stuck around for so long? i don't understand why or how she can say this to me. oh yeah, and by the way, i wasnt talking about me when i wrote "so many people have gone through so much more than you," i was talking about all the people i know that have actually been through an unbelievable amount of things in their life and are still here, on earth i mean.

So, any suggestions? feel free to tell me if you think i'm the "bitch" in this situation...