Am I Sick?

Anonymous

Brick created on 22/02/2008 @ 15:00

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When I was 11 my uncle came home drunk and molested me. I stopped it before it went too far. The next day I told my counselor... I saw him last year for the first since the night it happened. It had been six years. I almost had a panic attack. But I wanted to know if he was mad at me. I told my therapist that I wanted to know. And she asked me why. I didnt have an answer. I just want to know if he hates me....

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22/02/2008 @ 16:44 Wolfie said

Hi. What a brave brick that you have posted. I am sure that you uncle feels shame rather than hate. What makes you believe that he might hate you?
Love W
PS: if you reply, it will come up as anonymous
22/02/2008 @ 17:39 muffin said

Hi Anonymous - you may never know the answer - it is tough on you and maybe there needs to be a way of just coming to terms with not knowing especially as it was such a traumatic event. You know yourself better than anyone - try and find a way of coping with your uncle and the bad memories. Talk it through with the therapist - she will also help.
25/02/2008 @ 00:26 Anonymous said

Dear BWW... I hope this is how your reply I havent quiet figured it out yet... I feel that he might hate me because I was the reason that he is in prison for 10 years. Its just I cant help but wonder if he thinks about me everyday...And if he wonders what I look like...And I cant help but to think if he has anything he wants to say to me after all of these years....
25/02/2008 @ 08:31 Wolfie said

It sounds very much like you still have an 'attachment' to this uncle. Did you have a close relationship with him before he tried to molest you? Have you had other close relationships since then?
He is in prison because he did something very, very wrong. You need to focus hard on moving on - what you are feeling is not unusual, it is just not helpful to you. Put yourself first, leave you uncle in the past and focus on the rest of your life.
PS: You did it, your reply came up anonymous. It always will on your anonymous brick.
25/02/2008 @ 15:52 Anonymous said

yes we did have a very close relationship before what happened happened... I know I have been somewhat trying to move on...And I am still able to talk about the fact... I just feel like such a wierdo that I want to talk to the person who ruined my life. He didnt ruin it in the way you would think...Its just that I was in therapy for so many years. and i had PTSD and i dont know but thankyou for your advice. You have helped me...