bye shellby

wakemeup

Brick created on 24/07/2008 @ 14:25

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Yesterday, my family in California put my dog to sleep. and it really bugs me. My older sister maya who hated the dog went and took her to get put to sleep. Shellby was pretty old, were not exactly sure but we think 15-20years old and she went blind and deaf. It bugs me because I thought me and my dad agreed on not putting her down. I think putting animals down is wrong. You don't put people down, why do you out animals down? Whatever happened to God will take them when it is there time? wheres your faith at? Man, I am just so bummed. I didn't even see shellby everyday but I always wanted to go back and visit my family and see my dog. The only dog I ever had that me and my mom picked out together. Now I will never see her when I go out there. This sucks, and I am having a hard time trying to deal. Gosh my sisters such a bitch and my dad a douche bag for letting her take the dog. Well now there is nothing I can do about it now. So RIP Shellby, you were the bes dog in the world. Thank you for always being there for me. I love you and miss you lots.

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24/07/2008 @ 15:26 Wolfie said

:-( wakemeup - I am really sorry for your loss. I hope you can remember Shellby for what she was, a wonderful companion for so many years. Big hug. Wx
25/07/2008 @ 06:39 UMxx said

Hi wakemeup, I'm sorry about your dog and sad for the way that you feel about the way it was handled. I hope you can remember Shelby and not the other stuff. Maybe you can talk to your mum about how sad you are about this?
UM xx
25/07/2008 @ 13:55 wakemeup said

no, i cant talk to my mom. shes dead too.
25/07/2008 @ 14:22 Wolfie said

oh that is so tough, wakemeup, has she been gone a while? Hold it together sweetheart, Wx
25/07/2008 @ 19:02 wakemeup said

Dec. 2005.
25/07/2008 @ 20:17 Wolfie said

Not long then. The pain must still be very raw. And your dad? How do you two get along? OK? Wx
26/07/2008 @ 00:59 UMxx said

Dear wakemeup, and now I understand the importance that Shelby was in her life as well as what she represented in being a joint decision with your mum. I am really sorry about your mum's passing. My mum died that year too - it is a loss that seems like a big hole.
Sending you lots of love - UM xx
26/07/2008 @ 14:59 wakemeup said

me and my dad never talked when my mom was alive because all he did was go to work. and after she passed away my dad got all of this anger from her passing away and took it all out on me. so me and my dad do not get along very well. so thats one of the reasons why i moved away from my dad, and am now living with my aunt and uncle.
27/07/2008 @ 01:45 UMxx said

Hey wakemeup, Wow this is a really hard place for you to be - an angry Dad who isn't around for you and in angry and you away from your immediate family. I am really sad about this. How do you get on with you your aunt and uncle - they must be good people to welcome you into their home - that's great that you have an extended family to support you. Are they related to mum or dad? What about making a brick for mum about shelby's passing - I still write and talk to my mum - odd I know but it helps me sort some stuff out. I hope one day you and your Dad can sit down and sort out some of this stuff but it will take a bit of healing to get there. Thinking of you UM xxx
27/07/2008 @ 04:29 wakemeup said

Yeah my aunt and uncle are great, a little strict and old fashioned but they are good people. and my aunt is my mothers sister. I used to write my mom, everyday for like 3 months and then one night i took all the letters and drawings and burned then in a fire. and i decided i wasn't going to waste my time anymore, writing to someone who never could read or respond to them.
27/07/2008 @ 06:08 UMxx said

Well wakemeup, I am just glad you have a place and space with good people - I guess it is a great comfort to be with your mum's sister - and a great comfort for your aunt too. I can't imagine what it would be like if my sister passed away - well I would be gutted but her kids are all young adults - but I still have a role in their lives and always have.
Were you angry the night you burned the letters you wrote? I done the equivalent of deleting some of the things I've written of the computer - but when I think back I dressed it up as a seeing what I had written as a bit of silliness - then later realised it just made me feel more exposed and vulnerable so I got rid of the evidence. But then I am really odd about these things.
What sort of dog was Shelby - long coat - a spaniel?
take care
UM xx