FINALLY "over it"

Anonymous

Brick created on 20/02/2008 @ 10:34

Your brick story

I have recently been through an emotionally and verbally abusive marriage.
I met someone that seemed to be a complete opposite and without thinking let him into my life and the lives of my kids.
I was too anxious to trust and have faith in someone.
I wanted happiness and love
Once again I acted first.
I knew he was an alcoholic (he promised to quit), I knew he once HAD anger issues (they didnt surface till later OF COURSE)
I now am the proud recipient of an open invitation to his pity partys (waa feel bad for me) and all expense paid GUILT TRIPS (you must not love me as much as I love You etc...).
I let this person do the same things to me that I just got done dealing with.
Verbal abuse, emotional abuse, and controlling me.

How idiotic am I??

Only this person is being a bit more persistent and a bit scary.
Unfortunatly I will be ending a pregnancy that shouldnt have happened and I feel horrible about it, but I am doing it to save my children and myself from what could turn into a more abusive situation if we are forced to have contact.

I have put my priorities back in line where they should be and he doesn't seem to like NOT being #1.
I will be strong, I HAVE to. Not only for me but for my kids. I want to see them happy not afraid.

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20/02/2008 @ 12:48 Wolfie said

I am really sorry to hear what you have been through, and I only hope that you and your kids can come out of this relatively unscathed. Do what you have to do and stay strong. You will be Ok in the end. ((((big hug)))) Love Wolfie
28/02/2008 @ 01:47 lost46201 said

Don't beat yourself up for making the "mistake"... be strong in yourself, for your children - let them be the anchor that holds you strong to your path..... I know doing so saved MY life from my abuser all those years ago!
24/10/2008 @ 07:49 hellolou said

Just do what you feel and what you know is right.. No one said it would be easy.. They just said it would be worth it.. I believe that everything will be better in time.. God bless to you..
27/10/2008 @ 21:15 Anonymous said

UPDATE!
I made a decision to go through with my pregnancy and had a beautiful baby boy. He was premature by 5 weeks and 8 lbs!! I wasnt sure about keeping him at first and I had considered adoption. But I didnt do that either. So I am now a single parent of 3. A 12yo a 2yo and a 2mo old. My hands are totally full but I know that everything works out and My family has been very supportive.
27/10/2008 @ 21:42 Wolfie said

oh Anon, i am so pleased to hear that you are strong in yourself and that things have worked out. wishing you and your children all the luck in the world. Wx
28/10/2008 @ 06:53 hellolou said

hi! i admire you for your strength in going through all these. it really inspires me to find people like you, who stand up for the people you love no matter what comes your way.