All my life I have made poor choices in relationships. My first marriage ended because I realized that at some point I had succomed to peer pressure and married because everyone else was doing it. Next I had a series of men who, at the time, I thought each one was "the one." Then I decided not to date and I ended up meeting someone who really cared for me. I screwed that up because I thought I was bored and someone else was trying really hard to get my attention. I ended up making that person my second husband. This man admitted that I was a challange that he conquered and left me for someone else four months after we were married. I have now lost the opportunity to have a child as I'm getting older and there are some medical problems due to the stress from the second divorce. (Age also plays a factor)You'd think I would have learned, but I didn't. I am now involved with an alcoholic. I have been with him for five years and I know I should leave him. He has a daughter who is 15 and I love her dearly. I also love him but I don't believe him anymore when he tells me he will quit drinking. There are so many problems with an alcoholic, no trust, no reliability, no responsibility. I used to admire the way he raised his daughter, his faith in his religion, but that has all changed and I pity him. I am finacially capable of making a go of it on my own, I'm a professional with a really good job. I have a few close friends who are willing to help me through all of this but I just can't seem to take the leap. My fears are of losing touch with his daughter (which will for sure happen) and being alone. Right now, he and I work opposite shifts, spending time with each other only on the weekends and we have his daughter on a 50/50 split. So its almost as if I'm a single mother as I take care of her needs while he's sleeping and he goes to the bars during the day while I'm at work. He recently got an OWI so he says he's done with alcohol but I have heard this story many times in the past. I feel like I'm frozen, unable to make a plan or decision on my own. Any advice?